For You

It has almost been a year. Since, he away...

I've been missing you alot, always. I'm true. You always in my mind. Always appear in me whenever i'm sitting down alone, and, in deep thoughts.
Facts are so hard to accept. Ever since that day. I've been refused myself to update anything here in blogger until my bday is around the corner.

Couldn't accept the fact that you has already left us and update here to share with everyone. Way can't do it. On the another hand, i couldn't accept myself to update any interesting lifestories abt myself here, as well. Cos, the pain exists.

Now, we begun to accept the cruel facts. But trust me, deep down inside, You always staying alive in my heart. Never ever been walking away. Always remember your sweet smiles to us.

21st Oct 2008
The stressful torturing training has just only half way going. Night time around 11pm+, has already in deep sleep cos the training is really exhausted. The phone rang. It's yr ah gal, Freda's number appears. Bad sign. Strange feeling arises. Never ever she will call me at this hour of time ever since i came over HKG. But still i pick up the calls with all the blurriness i have. And this is how the bad news brought to me.

Unacceptable, Unbelievable. Been telling myself this must be not true! This must be a dream for me.

Sleepless night. Kept thinking of you. Cries and Cries doesnt seem to be able to bring back your return to us. Feeling hopelessly helpless..
Tell you what. The training on next day was really a terrible one for me. Although having a good looking trainer bringing us around. :-)

I can only keep looking at your facebook quietly. Nothing i wanna tell in yr page. You will surely know how we feel cos the real friendship is inside our heart. Needless to show it to the public. This ain't a show!!! This is a damn bloody heart painful bad experience i ever had.

I can only keep looking back the pictures we used to have. The pictures we taken together those days. And how sad i realised that, we doesn't have much picc taken together since we knew each other.

memory seeps from my veins.
Remembering the few consecutive Saturday nights of 'Young & Dangerous' session at Rendezvous. While half way clubbing, you guys must go out to have a fight with others. And all gals of us can only keep shouting and worrying. HAHAHA..
Remember both of us ran to Bistro and OMG! You're bleeding. Surprised that i didnt follow my bf at that time to look after him but instead, I am running with you! HAHAHA..
Also remembering how Jade is so Dai Ka Jie and bringing us to car park to drive yr car away and find you guys. Btw, i met Jade few months ago on a flight of mine. Well, it is such a huge different from the past.

Still remember the night we send you off for your further studies in Changi Airport @ Singapore. Tears is like a water falls for me. HAHAHA..

Recalling how 911 in the States has caused so much worries from silly us. Doesn't know that Boston is so far apart from New York. Hahaha...

Remembring the sweet emails you sent to us when internet is still not so widely use for us. HAHAHA..

Recalling those days when you called and asked to do lunch together. We had lunch altogether with so many of them @ Auntie Lim. All the talk cock sing songs we had.

Have got so much wanna share with you. But i know the fact. This can only be done in my dream. Been missing you much. You wouldn't know how much if affected us ever since you gone.

Anyone who came across this blog someday, please be reminded that this is my bottom heart's word to a true fren. Not other than anything. Dun wish to hear any gossips back in hometown again. YOU, hopeless gossip creator.

Last but not least. You will always being well keep by me, deep down inside my heart.